This is a term a coined for myself. A term to keep on going. Yesterday I was down in the dumps again. It was for the usual reasons. No sun, lack of company throughout the day and no concrete job as usual. It takes so much to keep going on on some days.
There is something about belief and the lack of it. How many of you have suffered from faith being shattered? Some of you who have suffered would agree that it takes a long time to bring yourself back in to believing. It reminds me of all the times I've been back stabbed. It always was a long and painful journey back to believing again in friendship. Its the same with career. Once you've been rejected by a company, it takes you sometime to gulp back those tears and get in to action.
Life becomes so shallow and dark without belief. I'm going through this lifelessness. I can't really let you in on what it is but I can ask you to shower me in with some light and hope.
The past couple of days I've not been able to write, paint, or do anything substantial. I don't even know what it is that's left me so devoid of colors. Am I homesick? Am I just miserable without a job or is it the recent deceit I just faced?
For those of you who read this, do pour in some suggestions on how to snap out of this lifelessness.