Saturday, March 26, 2011

Ageing Itch

Fading in to oblivion has always struck me as an alien thought, but having said that, I should add that it occurred to me today morning. I guess after a night of partying and all the alcohol in your system, one starts to wonder about all sorts of things, its like an itch that doesn't seem to go away.

Ageing is my itch today. Its crazy that I feel so fresh and young at heart but there is a certain stability in my life that I can't seem to reckon with. A year back, I couldn't have thought about being in a foreign country, dancing to Indian tunes with a bunch of unknown nationalities and being able to still recognize my identity. Its rather amusing, the way we human beings can adapt to any situation physically or psychologically. Why is it then, that we have to age? Of-course, the world has come to give us solutions to physical ageing like botox or liposuction but is there a solution to what goes on in our mind or the way that we are perceived?

Do we have to reckon with our age at anytime? I really really want to know. 

I feel more confident about myself than what I felt at 16 or 25. I am more focused in life and seem to get my way around faster in any given situation now than I ever did before. I can run faster and longer now.I can balance studies, work 2 jobs, gym and socialize better now than before. I also find solutions coming my way often rather than problems. Does age have to do anything with it? Oh my God, I hope not. 

I have such a huge fear today and I am so ashamed to admit it. Is anybody else going through these foolish thoughts as well? (And no, its not to do with physical appearance, because I'm often asked to show my identity even while purchasing beer :P). Its just with a perception that old people should not party,wear dirty old clothes, have babies, sit at home, drink at home and may be even die at home :'(

Oh I've really psyched myself! Starting today..I should work on a documentary called sweet 60!! HELP!!SOS!!

No cheers!!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Bleeding hearts and silent prayers

As we all sit in the comfort of our homes, and hopefully all of you are sound and safe, I cannot help but think about the devastation in Japan. It's strange to think about people living on the same planet who see the same sky, wake up with the same sun and sleep under the same star light.

The country of the rising sun is covered with the unimaginable grey skies right now. Look at the play of nature, it creates us and then it decides to wreckage us in such brutal manners. My heart bleeds at the sight of the massive destruction. It is in times like these that we think about not "our" human powers but a superior to us "mother nature". Its surprising that even in grave times like these when politicians in our country, still call our nuclear power plants safe. Its even more amusing to see that the great financial advisors, the world over find an "opportunity" in these testing times. This is not even shameful, its just "inhuman" I see it.

I sit at home comfortably and write about this, trust me I feel guilty of making this as a topic. But I do want all of you who read this to think about the two sides of human nature. One that will emerge out of this stronger. Yes, I am sure, some of us at least, have said those silent prayers and will form a human chain to pull back Japan. The second is the suicidal lot of people, like our politicians, who still do not acknowledge the power in nature and continue to set up these power plants and keep them from being closed, for what they call "our" comfort. And this comes in as an afterthought, that India has an abundance of solar, water and wind energy.

I feel really little by this huge catastrophe and I only pray that it passes over Japan soon. I wish that all the lives could be saved and I hope that some day soon, we can again see Japan rise like the rising sun.


Sunday, March 6, 2011

Reality, Illusion and Magic

Have you noticed whatever appears to us is mostly an illusion? What we believe in becomes a reality? And when some of us are able to cross over these lines of illusion and reality..we mostly create magic.

I try so hard to understand politics, the financial markets, the judicial system and all such man-made created institutions. The harder I try to understand them, the feeling of disillusion grows stronger. Movies like the "Inside job", news channels like NDTV or CNNIBN only throw light about what is NOT right in the world today. We are witness to the Egyption revolution, and now the unrest in Libya. Back home we have issues like the CWG and 3G scams making way. The more I read, the lesser I know. There is spine chilling greed in India today and then there is a basic right of freedom that people are fighting for. As an outsider, I can only look on with beady eyes as I don't understand much of it. All that goes around today is something that is created by an underlying current in the world. It is the need for power above all. And this to me, my friends is an illusion.

My reality arises out of my self sustainment and as the most common man, I sympathize with the people of Libya, who probably could not even publish a blog like I do. I feel the despair of the people who lost their money and livelihood in the economic crisis. I will never be able to fully understand their despair but yeah some where in my heart, i did shed those tears of hatred and disgust at a financial system so disillusioned. I also feel ashamed about my country men, elected by me, trying to constantly deceive me and other tax paying citizens. This is my shattered reality.

The Magic is when illusion and reality meet to create something like an idea of a revolution. I wonder why there is lesser stress and talk about the inventions in the world. Of-course commercially there are hot selling products everyday but what goes on in the minds of the inventors. What is their take on reality vs illusion to give us these magical products everyday. Why aren't there enough movies or news channels talking about them. Why are these mediums of communications throwing light only on these corrupt leaders and keeping the real heroes (And by heroes I don't mean only Sachin Tendulkar or SRK or A.R. Rehman) out of our sight?

Has our society forgotten all about the only power that really matters : CREATION.